A family that cares....

So that hiatus helped, and well, I said I would write something soon and whatnot, but of course things come up,  stress occurs, and life happens. I guess here's to updating, still being alive, and figuring out life...


Well, this weekend I got to see another one of my best friends get married. And for those of you who don't know, I have like 10 best friends, all male. And yes, they are all still really good friends with me, and support me, even if they don't understand, and feel awkward about it a little. Anyway, he got married, and it was a grand time held by all. I got to see old friends, my family, and even others that really surprised me on how accepting they were. Such a nice time. :) All my stress seemed to fade away. Once I came back to my apartment, 4 hours away, all that stress started to come back. I did some financial calculations, and well....it would be nearly impossible for me to move out of here for about 3 years...


I am paying way too much in bills and barely make enough for me to survive. The current job I'm at, even with the raises, can barely support myself. I've weighed the pros and cons, and it looks like, even if its for a few months, moving back home with my parents (or possibly friends) would be the best bet. If I move back, the minimum wage is higher than my current pay rate, and I'll save some money on rent. With that, bills would take me down from over 600 dollars a month, to about 300. Well then, looking at it that way, it really does seem like a better deal. Yes it's going to be rough living there, but I think its the best thing I could do for myself. Less rent, less bills, at least for a few months. On top of that, it would be a stepping stone for my journey toward living in Seattle. :)


Anyway, long story short, I'm moving back home. My parents are being really supportive of me now, as well as my second family. I love all my friends and family, and thankfully they are still in my life. I can't do this alone, and I'm realizing this. My transition isn't just about finding out who I am, it's also about my family and friends discovering who I really was. How we all interact with each other, and trust. I have a good support network here, but now that my family is involved, I think I'll give them another chance. At least for a little while. :)




Until next time, with love,
~Ellie