And thus, a new life begins...

So, I missed a week. Yea I know, trying to stay caught up and everything, but this time I missed it on purpose. The reason is:

I started hormones! :D


Tuesday, May 24th, 2011 at 2:45 pm was my appointment with my doctor. I've been doing my fair share of research about what I needed to take, what I didn't need to take, and what I could afford. Insurance is funny like that, since they won't pay for some things, even if we need them to. Lucky we figured out a way for it to not be too expensive. So I have officially started my full transition. It feels really good! My dream is now becoming reality!


So, here's a quick back track. At work, I've been going there more and more as the real me. Even with people who had no idea about my "real self", were shocked to find out, but weren't really surprised. In fact, they supported me. Being me at work, although stressful, its made me happier. I just feel really good about it, and feel comfortable. Yeah I still worry about making sure my makeup looks right, that I look feminine, and all that jazz. The only thing is, it just feels right, and that's the important thing, right? And now, when I'm stuck in drive through, greeting the customers, and taking money, no one even questions my gender. They hear a female, and see a female. No more being made fun of. Examples of things customers would say while I worked as a male:


"He must be gay".
"I thought you were a chick! WTH Man?"
"F**."
"What are you, queer?"
"See I told you it wasn't a chick! He's a queer! F**!"


Yea. Not fun. At all. Luckily now, no one has said anything. Apparently, there's no question about it in their minds now. Everyone at work knows, even the General Manager knows, and really liked that I was being professional about the whole situation. Supports me, as long as there's now problem. As good as it will get.


Not only is work going well, but life is as well. One of the things I've been stressing about the most is how I'm going to tell all my best friends. I told a few of them throughout coming out to the world, and other really close friends. My best friends grew up together. We've known each other since sixth grade. That would make us best friends for.....wow, just about 12 years now! With a friendship this strong, I'm not sure why I doubted so much I really was afraid that things would change for the worse. I told the last of my best friends this past Sunday. In fact, they didn't seem too surprised of me coming out. One of them even said, "Well, that makes sense. No surprise there." They joked like always telling me that I was more feminine anyway. They all supported me, and know that my personality isn't changing. I'm just becoming my real self.


So, back to the doctor's office. The staff there is amazing. They are all friendly, and accepting, and just wow. I really could not believe it. The nurses have even said how lovely I looked today, and how well I pull things off. Even my doctor said, that she is very impressed with how I already look without hormones. She is a wonderful doctor, and I couldn't have found her without the help of one close friend here. :)


Hormones are a big step in my transitioning, and although the pills themselves aren't the ones making me happy, it is making me feel more comfortable with myself. Looking more like how I should look, giving me more confidence, and with confidence, being happy with who I am. Always be happy with who you are, and be comfortable with yourself. Even if you have to tweak it a little. :P


Until next time, with love,
~Elle