Chaos and discord....

Apologies for not posting the last two weeks.....and I was doing so well too! The last month has been both a blast, and a painful month. Lots of things happening in my life. Although most of them being good, the one bad thing that has happened was effective enough to give me nightmares every night, torment me during work, and wanting to just be anti social. That will be another story for another day, if I decide to write about it to the public. For now, the good stuff. :) And well.....I guess I will write this in chronological order. Yes, it took me almost 20 minutes to figure out if I should do it that way, or with related subjects....I am such a dork. >.<

We last left off talking about how I had a date going for Friday, September 30th was my first date with a boy. Ever. And my first one in over a year. It turned out to be great! Walked and talked mostly. He seemed quiet enough, and well, it went well. Our second date though (two days later) not so much. Essentially, he had some things to figure out first. Which is ok, because he ended up bringing something up that had been hidden away in my mind for quite a while. Called things off right away, before things got too complicated. :/ At least I've been feeling better since. :)

Now, the weekend of the 7th of October was a great time. This was the Vandal Homecoming, in which Alumni   return to play together again in Marching band. I was welcomed by everyone, including people who hadn't been informed about my transition yet. We marched, played, drank, and had a great time reminiscing about the past, and catching up with old friends. Overall a very fun experience. Definitely going to return next year!

Work, work, work. More stress and its just becoming more and more difficult of a job. Mostly because my social life feels like its pretty much gone if I don't schedule anything, and no one can sub for me if need be really. Its a terrible feeling, just being either at work, or alone in the apartment most of the time. With new hires, hopefully this will change soon enough.

Now....I've been dealing with my "bad thing" and can at least stand, and be strong again (still not going to write about it :P ).  On the bright side, someone ended up contacting me Sunday night via online. We ended up pretty much chatting, and talked about many, many things. On the third day (Tuesday), we ended up having an impromptu first date with coffee and a bagel. I told her about me, and we have been pretty much 100% honest with each other so far. Talked over IM from 2 pm till about 5 pm, in which I then went to meet her for our date. We stayed up until about 3 am just talking. I haven't done that in so long. And there were very few, if any, awkward pauses during our conversation. Today we hung out for a bit once again. This weekend will be hectic, but we will keep in touch it seems. She seems to like me, a lot, and although we both are thinking of leaving this place in late May, early June, we said that we'll just see where things will take us. :) Hopefully it'll be a good place!

Until next time, with love,

~Ellie

P.S. I'm so exhausted....sleep. now. I think I'll finally be able to sleep well once again.