Dawning of a new era....

So. Interestingly enough, this week has been pretty terrible, but I kept my hopes up. Not sure what changed in me, but I'm out of that stupid rut that I have been in for a few weeks now. Well, at least I got out of it a few weeks ago. Moaning and groaning about it seemed to make it worse. I truly gave up on complaining and instead, just lived life.

I just kind of went with the flow, stressed and all, but knowing who I was, and what I wanted to achieve kept helping me through it. Even when I ended up getting oil from one of the fryer vats land on my face last Sunday, I kept going. Yea it hurt, but I needed to keep pushing. So glad that I was able to stop most of it, and wipe most of it off my face. Very lucky. On top of that, I have also injured my back. Probably with the lifting of heavy objects. It's pretty much been one bad thing after another. >:(

There is something that has changed recently though, a little ray of hope. Well two things. 1) The weather. :) Yes, its gotten colder, and it has actually rained recently. I always prefer it to rain over sunny days. Besides, cold weather just makes it better for cuddling. :P And 2) I have a date!!!! ^.^

Okay. So I pretty gave up on trying to find someone. I really didn't have time to go out to the bars or parties to even meet people. Especially when working full time, and then trying to hang out with friends and running errands on my days off. It just wasn't working. So I joined a dating site, a free one, because I didn't want to pay money for something I didn't think I was going to use very often. Well, to my surprise, on my first day, someone contacted me. We've been messaging and texting back and forth since. We just talked about whatever really. Getting to know each other. Talked about where we are from, dating, relationships, thoughts on things, you know, basics. Finally yesterday, I was wondering if he was going to ask me out. Nothing was happening......so I took a chance....and fumbled a little...but the words went through. I was so nervous for the answer. He said yes!!! ^.^

He seems really nice, and sweet. I can't wait for our date, and we shall see how things go. I must be careful since this is my first date in over a year, and well....I've never been in a relationship where I was truly happy with myself. Plus I've never dated a guy, so we shall see how everything goes. One step at a time. To start things off though, I wanted to be completely honest with him. Starting off anything with a lie is bad, so I told him about myself. That I've only been on hormones and living full time as a woman for 4 months now. I used to be a boy, but have always felt like a female. That I am a girl, nothing less, and all that jazz. He completely understood my situation, and was still willing to go out with me! I guess it helps that he's bi. :) I hope things work out, and of course I will have to be careful along the way. He is still a stranger, no matter how nice he seems, for now. I'll keep everyone posted though on what happens. Now, time to go rest because my back is killing me! At least life seems to finally be getting better. :)

Until next time, with love,
~Ellie

P.S. I was so not expecting my post to fit so well one after another. I thought it would take a few weeks, but wow, things are changing faster than I though! ^.^