The ride so far...

The past month and a half has been full of adventure and wonder. Aka busy like none other. And I feel terrible for not being able to even find a few minutes to post anything. But I have not forgotten about the blog, and now that things are settling down again, I should be able to keep it up. Hopefully.

So, I've been pretty busy with trying to figure out finances and how to deal with work, and figuring out how in the heck i'm going to be able to move to Seattle. Long story short, I can't move to there. Moving is expensive, especially if you don't have a job lined up for when you get there. I will get there, eventually, but for now, its not going to be possible. The opportunity for Seattle isn't gone, its just out of reach for now. Which has opened other possibilities for the time being.

Now that I'm stuck here in this college town for a little while longer, it has made me look for some Doctors to help me out. Surprisingly, there are some. Which, of course, I need to get a hold of this week. So I should be able to start hormones relatively soon, which I'm both scared and excited for. And an electrolysis specialist too. Although i'm definitely not looking forward to all that pain.  :/

Best part though of not moving to Seattle quite yet? Well, I've been able to start living more fulltime lately. Going out to bars, restaurants, and even shopping as the real me. Even hanging out with friends I'm the real me. Only real place left that I haven't been me is at my work. Although most people know about me there, they haven't seen the real me. Not only that, but the store owner is very, VERY conservative. Luckily for me, I ended up having a nice talk with the Store Manager about me wanting to move away, NEEDING to move to a bigger city so I can finally be me. I told her how I've been planning on leaving, but really cannot afford to right now. She ended up smiling and letting me know that I don't need to move to be able to be me. Most people at the store know about me, and will support me. And although it would be awkward at first, people will get used to it, and that she will even try her best to help me at the store. She will talk to the owner about my situation, and all that good stuff. She let me know, that I don't have to hide anymore. That was just the greatest news that I could have heard from anyone. I honestly tried to not cry right then and there. :)

Long story short, I'm staying for a little while longer in this town, getting a promotion at work, and starting to definitely live full time. As well as beginning to start a full transition. Being able to express who I am has made me feel free, and that is the greatest feeling anyone can have.

Until next time, with love, 

~Elle